August 27th, 2011
|10:11 am - Belly Belly Belly !|
Well, i decided that i'm going to take pregnancy pictures in the same shirt for all of my pictures this go around. That way it is easy to see the difference :)
So, here is 6 weeks.
And here is Yesterday (approx 10 weeks)
I'm scared to know how much i've gained at my next doc appt! (on monday eek)
August 26th, 2011
|02:14 pm - Cleaning?|
So. I have this desperate need to clean everything. The only problem is. I just don't have the get up and go to do it, if i get up i'm ready to hurl and if i start cleaning and emilee wake sup i will be mad because i'm half through with my stuff.
I think i may see if Alan will watch emilee for a day so i can uber clean. I will still be here if need be, but i can get stuff done. He doesn't work this weekend, so, we might just see how he feels about that.
For those of you who have been reading there was a little rockiness in paradise. Well, after last night rockies are gone and it's smooth sailing again :) YAY. First night in a while i got to climb into bed and feel calm and peaceful to sleep.
We go for Ultrasound on Monday and all that "vagina stuff" as well. Can't wait to see baby C, i'm ecstatic :)
This is TMI but.. o well it's my journal.. My boobs are getting horribly large. I've went up a cup size at least already. I've also look about 4 months pregnant, which we know i'm not. YAY. The bigger boobs would be wonderful, except for they are like bricks. They hurt, they are heavy, and i'm sure if i hit you with one, i could cause some serious damage. It doesn't help that Emilee has decided to grab nipples at various times and pull like she's trying to remove them.... O YAY
August 25th, 2011
So.. Today i'm having this horrible feeling that i'm having twins. I've mentioned it a few times, and everyone is jokingly picking on me about i have to be carrying more than one. I'm huge compared to most people at this point, and we are very sure on conception, so we know it isn't dates that are messed up. And, i just dont know how we would afford two more babies right now. We are barely making it by now, and by barely, i mean not really. We will find out Monday if it's only one baby, but until then i'm gonna freak out.
We are barely making bills now, then add all the stuff for 1 baby and idk how we will do it, then add the possibility of two!! I have NO clue how we will handle that, because to put them all in childcare around here it would be 1500 dollars a month!
August 22nd, 2011
I've been crying all day. I'm not even sure why at this point. life? Hormones? IDK! But i'm sick of crying. Emilee laid down for her nap and i immediately burst into tears when i got a minute alone. :(
August 21st, 2011
So... Alan has been smoking the 'legal weed' at work. This horribly pisses me off, one because he didn't tell me, two he's been doing it behind my back, and three, he knows my thoughts on this. He's a grown man stop acting like a child. He's been acting much different, and now i know why. I am pretty sure he was high when he got home this morning, and that i am so mad i almost have steam coming out of my ears. I know it's 'legal' but that doesn't change anything. I do not like him around my little girl like that, and if he's doing it behind my back now, how long has he been doing it?
I almost felt like he cheated on me when i figured this all out. But the way he's been acting since his friend asked him to 'pick him some up before work' has completely been different. He leaves a little earlier for work, he gets home a little later. And his attitude is just different. I'm about ready to lose my mind. It's childish, and immature to do at work especially. How could you do something that could endanger our family? Yes it may be legal, but not it's still not legal to be high at work.
I dealt with a man who smoked/drank/got high for 5 years, and it was the worst thing in my life. It started off with the legal stuff and drinking and after 5 years it was horrible. I see us going down that road and he knows my opinion of this. Especially with a new child coming into this house and my little girl already here.
August 19th, 2011
|02:20 pm - Yes i am bored. So deal with it|
My child is being overly quiet and we have decided today is a "ratatouille" kinda afternoon before nap time. I know i know.. OMGOODNESS she's watching tv it's the devil!! O NOOOO HOW HORRIBLE. Save the bullcrap.. But while she is watching some very amusing movie i decided to do another one of these :)
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A picture of my two loves, Emilee and Alan
Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
3 That are in use
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
Does having a baby count?
Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
The plasma when we moved in
Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I wouldn't change it.
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
Does black count? If not, teal/aqua
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
No, i enjoy all 10 fingers
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
That is a hard one....
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
Depends on how it was portrayed?
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
Q. What is in your left pocket?
I'm in sweats, no pockets
Q. Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
Q. Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Tile and carpet
Q. Do you sit or stand in the shower?
If i'm showering i stand, if i'm taking a bath i sit?
Q. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
Q. Last person who texted you?
Q. Last person who called you?
Q. Person you hugged?
Q. Missing someone?
Q. Listening to?
Q. Worrying about?
Sweat pants and a tee shirt
Q. First place you went this morning?
I haven't left the house today
Q. What can you not wait to do?
Hear our babies heartbeat/see baby
Q. Do you smile often?
Q. Are you a friendly person?
Most the time
So, emilee has always been the most amazing sleeper there is. She sleeps better than me, but the past 3 nights she has been terrible to get down, she doesn't stay down all night (which she normally does) and she's up at like, 4-5am.
I think she has 4 new teeth coming in, so i think that might be it. Or could it be a growth spurt? or just a phase?
I think i'm going to die if it doesn't stop, i need sleeeeeeppzzz
Stolen from laniiolana
1. What kind of soap is in your bathtub right now?
Shea butter with lilac for me, johnsons and johnson nighttime wash for emilee and Axe something or another for Alan
2. Do you have any watermelon in your refrigerator?
No, but I have cantelope does that count?
3. Is there anything moldy in your refrigerator?
4. Are there any dirty dishes in your sink?
There are a few from last night that i left soaking, but that's all.
5. What would you change about your living room?
New furniture and it would be clean :)
6. Are the dishes in your dishwasher clean or dirty?
Clean, i should go unload them...
7. Do you have a can of mushrooms in your pantry?
Nope, we rarely eat them because Alan doesn't like them :( Blah
8. White or wheat bread?
9. What is on top of your refrigerator?
Two big bowls, oil, cigarette carton, oil, candles, a mixer, tea bags, ziploc bags and tin foil
10. What color is your sofa?
A light sage green? But the one we hopefully get soon is all black
11. What color or design is on your shower curtain?
Blue/brown/green in one, and just a clear one in the other
12. How many plants are in your home?
13. How many candles are in your home?
6 or 7?
14. Is your bed made right now?
Nope, because Alan is asleep in it and i think it would be rude to go in and make the bed while he is in it
15. If you have a coffee pot, what color is it?
The pot is glass. The maker is black
16. Electric or standard can opener?
27. Comet or Soft Scrub?
We have both, i prefer comet
28. Is your closet organized?
Yes, but type and color, oen side is mine, one side is alans. Emilees closet is sorted out into outfits and color, i know, i'm oCD
29. What color is the flashlight that you use the most?
30. What kinds of things are in your junk drawer?
We dont open that drawer.. It is scary
31. Do you drink out of glass or plastic most of the time at home?
aluminum cans lol
32. Do you have iced tea made in a pitcher right now?
Yes, but i have more on the stove being made right now
33. If you have a garage, is it cluttered?
34. Curtains or blinds?
35. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Before alan, it was like, 10000 but now, i get 2 pillows and my enormous body pillow, plus alan's 1 pillow
36. Do you sleep with any lights on at night?
Emilee has a little blue light in her room (actually it's her baby monitor) and i keep a lamp near my bed so i can see if i have to get up to pee/get em/get hungry
37. How many ceiling fans are in your home?
38. How often do you vacuum?
Once a day, if not more
39. Standard toothbrush or electric?
40. What color is your toothbrush?
White and pink in one bathroom, green and black in the other (Yes i have two, so that no matter which bathroom i puke in, i can brush my teeth without having to let the whole world know i just hurled)
41. Do you have a welcome mat on your front porch?
No, but we have a shoe mat right inside the door
42. What is in your oven right now?
a bun! haha (i had to keep this answer, it was too cute lani)
43. Is your microwave clean or dirty?
Clean, again, i'm ocd on a daily basis, then add pregnant, and it's gotten WORSE about clean stuff
44. Is there anything under your bed?
A few totes
45. Chore you hate doing the most?
Taking out the trash. It's the only one i refuse to do, that's alan's job.
46. What retro items are in your home?
We have a retro lamp, but it's awesome looking!
47. Do you have a separate room that you use as an office?
no, our dining room is the 'office' though
48. If you have a yard, who mows it?
The apartment people mow it :)
49. Is there anything on your kitchen floor right now?
Yes, because i can't find my broom, so there are apple jacks crumbs
50. How many mirrors are in your home?
51. Do you have any hidden emergency money around your home?
uChange jar count?
52. What color are your walls?
White, we can paint, but we plan on moving after this lease is up so not going to.
53. Which rooms in your house have wallpaper?
54. Do you have a peephole in your front door?
Yes, but i'm to short to use it
55. Do you keep any kind of protection weapons in your home?
My super macho fists? lol
56. What does your home smell like right now?
57. Fave candle scent?
Lavander and vanilla
58. What kind of pickles (if any) are in your refrigerator right now?
59. Who are in the pictures you displayed?
61. Do you have plenty of cabinet space in your kitchen?
62. Ever been on your roof?
No, the apartment manager might frown upon a pregnant woman gonig spiderman on the roofs
62. Do you own a stereo?
63. How many TVs do you have?
3 in the house, but have 2 more
64. How many house phones?
65. Do you have a housekeeper?
66. What style do you decorate in?
Ummm. The "spongebobwinniethepoohtinkerbellleapfrog" style?
67. Do you like solid colors in furniture or prints?
68. Is there a smoke detector in your home?
68. In case of fire, what are the items you would grab if you only could make one quick trip?
Does Emilee count as an item? if so, her, my laptop, and the "box" it's a bin full of birth records, and important photos
69. Do you know how to work your electrical box?
70. What temperature in your home is most comfortable to you?
Alan keeps it 71ish in the house :( but i'd prefer like 75
August 16th, 2011
|10:39 pm - WARNING: VENT OVERLOAD|
WARNING: I AM VENTING
So, i hate to tell you all but all babies don't work the same. With emilee, she was on rice cereal at 2-3 months, not long after, stage 1 baby food, not long after that stage 2, and now at a 14 months she eats what we eat (minus the shellfish). I didn't get to breastfeed with her, i dried up very quickly no matter what we tried. Formula wasn't doing it for her. And She is a healthy happy little girl.
So please, before you start commenting on this, i dont want to hear "OMG YOU ARE HORRIBLE I CAN"T BELIEVE YOU FED A HUNGRY BABY BULLSHIT"
I see babies at 6 months old, eating bottles every 2 hours, well guess what, emilee was sleeping all night by 6 months. She wasn't collicy, she wasn't a whiny baby, she was able to hold her sippy cup *yes, she was on a sippy cup by the age of 4-5 months* by the time she was 4 months without help. And she's never had any iron problems, food problems, and she eats anything and everything you could think of. She has a healthy diet, and everytime we go to the doctor they are overly happy about her weight gain, her health, her vitamin intake, etc, etc, etc. She's also on cows milk which we started at 11-12 months.
Babies are not robots, and they are all different. Emilee was never satisfied with formula, or just milk. She was also never a happy baby if she had to wake up because she was hungry. Instead, i have a beautifully healthy 14 month old girl that sleeps in her bed, by herself, without being coddled, wrapped, rocked or soothed to sleep, she is happy to lay down at night after some cuddles and kisses and go to bed, lights off, calm radio on. O just for the fun of it, did i mention that i let her sleep on her stomach *GASP*.
If you dont like it, dont read, i dont care.
She was rolling over from the day we brought her home, and i refused a swaddle, and a pacifier. So, she slept however she was comfortable.
I also have a baby who eats food, doesn't need it pureed, or mashed, (yes, am careful, i watch her eat) but i dont mind if she gags a little, because she has learned what she can and can't handle.
So deal with it, your baby is 15 months old, has a half a jar of baby food a day still drinking formula or on the boob every 2 hours, wakes up mutliple times a night, has to be rocked and carefully laid down for bed while we are having a wonderfully peaceful day and night. HA I think in this situation, i am the happier family.
I know, this is totally rude, and out there and yes, extravagant in a way, but it got my point across. DEAL WITH IT IF YOU DONT LIKE IT YOU DONT HAVE TO READ IT